Tuesday, November 18, 2008

I hope you realise

Wednesday, 19 November 2008 @ 9.40am

I hope you realise that damage has been done.

I hope you realise that this time it's serious.

I hope you realise that things will be different.

I hope you realise that not everything can be solved through a 'discussion'.

I hope you realise that things are not going to be the same.

I hope you realise that I am changing.

I hope you realise that I'm young and I'm learning quickly.

I hope you realise that I'm distancing myself for a good reason.

I hope you realise that I need some time.

I hope you realise that I'm under a lot of pressure.

I hope you realise that I'm under a lot of stress.

I hope you realise that I prefer to be left alone.

I hope you realise that I cannot stand listening to the same repetitive bullshit that I hear everyday.

I hope you realise that it's you who's slowly pushing me away.

I hope you realise that as you're pushing me away, there's always someone there to comfort me instead.

I hope you realise that I'm not going to make an effort to find a solution because there never is one.

I hope you realise I'm trying to find a way out.

I hope you realise that I'm working as hard as fuck to find that way out.

And I hope you realise that I won't be censoring what I write in my blog anymore.

4 comments:

Ms Martha Moore said...

Is everything ok sis?

anna r said...

no everything is not ok.

Ms Martha Moore said...

hmm.....

is there anything i can do or help?

anna r said...

not really. this is not a problem that's going to go away. but don't worry. it's all good (i lie) :) I'm fine, really.