Monday, December 22, 2008

Is it wrong?

Monday, 22 December 2008 @ 6.17pm

Is it wrong to have feelings? Is it wrong to feel disappointed? Is it wrong to want to try and spend whatever little time is available with you? Is it wrong that I feel a little down for not being able to see you tonight?

Yes, I remember what we spoke about the other night. Yes, it was me who said we should do as we agreed. Yes, it was also me who's been the so-called understanding one.

I've decided to concentrate on my work. I've decided to focus on my career. I've decided that I won't care if I don't get to spend so much time with you anymore. I've decided to pursue every free moment of my time doing another job, not even bothering to make time on your off day.

Call me needy if you want. Clingy. But really? Is that fair? How often do I call you? Once? Twice a day? Is that too clingy? Is it wrong that I want to spend time with you? That I look forward to our nights out? Our rare moments of free time together that's not spent with our friends or in the company of our families? I've asked you once, twice, thrice...when was the last time it was just you and me? Do I have to beg you for time? Is it really wrong for me to want to spend what little free time I have with you? How often do I even see you? Think about it.

Yes, it's selfish. Yes, it's not fair. But no, I don't think it's unfair. I'm just doing what you're doing.

2 comments:

Mr Wordless said...

that reminds me of something

a lyric or some sort

"You Can Call Me Selfish
But All I Want Is Your Love
You Can Call Me Hopeless,Baby
'Cause I'm Hopelessly In Love
You Can Call Me Un-perfect
But Who's Perfect?
Tell Me What Do I Gotta Do?
To Prove That I'm The Only One For You
What's Wrong With Being Selfish?"

nsync - selfish

compasch

anna r said...

oh my god yes! yes! yes! yes! i have that song and i've heard it 25 thousand times! but it never occured to me!

oh my god...do u realise that there's now a lump in my throat? i'm sitting at my place (where you were sat next to me the other night) at 9.53am and i'm trying not to cry!

aiyo...can you go talk to your abang long? i'm getting all emo again... :(